Tuesday, December 27, 2011

I Pray On Christmas...

"So here's what I want you to do, God helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life - your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking around life - and place it before God as an offering. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him." Romans 12:1 The Message

It has been a long time since I published a post. It takes self-discipline and a cooperative computer, neither of which I have had since the fall! I pray that God will renew my self-discipline, and I have been blessed with new technology for Christmas...I hope to write at least once or twice a week.


Christmas is a difficult time of year for many people. For many years it was for me as well. We invest so much time and energy into preparing for Christmas, especially as women...decorating, choosing just the right gift, wrapping, thinking through menus and then cooking up a storm of goodies. Trying not to be hurt or sad or haunted by sorrow or memories. All amidst our regular busy routines! It is surely impossible for anyone to have that perfect Christmas that we see on television, hear about in Christmas carols, and see pictured in Norman Rockwell calandars. Human selfishness, grief and sadness, impatience and frustration, all these things and more creep into our celebrations. And these traditions often don't bear much resemblance to the humble beginnings of our Lord's arrival on Earth. Remember that no matter what unexpected or challenging things happened that first Christmas, Mary treasured them all and pondered them in her heart.

No matter what Christmas has been like for you this year, I pray that you can give God every piece of it. Whether sorrow or grief, fatigue or overwhelm, joy and peace, anxiety and fear, place each day before God and ask Him to lead the way. Out of the pit and into His arms. Where life may not always be easy, but hope, peace and love are constant companions.



Friday, July 8, 2011

Mud & Water

"But I pray to you, Lord, for favor. God, because of your great love, answer me. You are truly able to save. Pull me from the mud, and do not let me drown. Save me from those who hate me, and from the deep water. Do not let the flood drown me or the deep water swallow me..."
Psalm 69:13-15
I ran a very special race last week, called the "Not Since Moses": not since God parted the Red Sea have people gathered to run on the ocean floor. We did just that: only twice a year, the always dramatic Bay of fundy tides are so extreme, that God allows a very brief window of opportunity to run a race on the ocean floor.
It has been described as a spiritual run,for many reasons. Seeing the grandeur of the beauty of nature in such a dramatic setting, makes you pause and wonder at the Creator. The fact that the 14 feet of water has receded, allowing us just over 2 hours to run in awesome beauty where sea creatures were playing just moments before. The tall cliffs and water steadily returning to it's place, puts the runner in her place: you are small, but a speck of dust, and not in control. God is in control, and He is mighty.
It was too beautiful to run without pausing to take some photographs, and gaze in admiration at the spectacular, sundrenched beauty, of the ocean floor. Deep breaths of crisp sea air and the cool refreshing breeze, the slosh of water through my sneakers cooling me as I ran. Feeling bogged down in the 200 metres of thick, heavy mud we had to cross twice, I was reminded of times in my life when I have felt I just couldn't make it. Yet persistence and the courage to continue on, along with a keen sense of humor, were all that were really needed!
Thank you Lord Jesus, for the majesty and the beauty of nature. Thank you for pulling me from the mud in the race of my life, and for saving me from the deep waters. You give me strength, courage, and persistence on my journey. You protect me from the deep waters, and Your timing is perfect: though I may fear deep waters, you will never let them swallow me. Amen.

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Running the Race with Endurance and Perseverance

"Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a huge crowd of witnesses to the life of faith, let us strip off every weight that slows us down, especially the sin that so easily trips us up. And let us run with endurance the race God has set before us. We do this by keeping our eyes on Jesus, the champion who initiates and perfects our faith. Because of the joy awaiting him, he endured the cross, disregarding its shame. Now he is seated at the place of honor beside God's throne." Hebrews 12:1-2, NLT
Do you see what all this means- all these pioneers who blazed the way, all these veterans cheering us on? It means we'd better get on with it. Strip down, start running - and never quit! No extra spiritual fat, no parasitic sins. Keep your eyes on Jesus, who both began and finished this race we're in. Study how he did it. Because he never lost sight of where he was headed - that exhilirating finish in and with God - he could put up with anything along the way: Cross, shame, whatever. And now he's there, in the place of honour, right alongside God."
Hebrews 12:1-2, The Message

Last Sunday was the first time I would cross a finish line. As I rounded the corner towards the final stretch, I could hear the crowd, the runners and the announcer cheering me on. I should have been tired, just about out of steam...but I felt a surge of energy that defies description. There was nothing holding me back - I sprinted toward the finish line, and jumped for joy at having accomplished my goal. My friends had high fives and congratulations for me, a medal was placed around my neck, and I was on a natural high that lasted for some time! I am not sure I have ever been so proud of myself...
If you had asked me if I ran a few months ago, or a few years ago, I would have laughed out loud. It is not something I ever envisioned doing. Yet it was part of God's plan for me, and He has been teaching me about my life and myself as I learned to run. I learned there were things I had to
strip off and leave behind - negative thinking, a lack of faith in myself, a tendency to give up. I learned that running was all about slowing down to my own unique pace, and being persistent and consistent in my training. It was also about relying on support, encouragement and help from those who had run before. All of these are parallels to living the life of faith that Paul describes so well in Hebrews 12:1-2.
I also noticed something after my race: it was much, much easier to "witness" about my running, and my experience at the race, than it is to witness about my life in faith. The natural high helped of course, and reminded me of how I felt after completing a Challenge or Cursillo weekend. But others seemed genuinely interested in my experience, and I was not afraid to tell them about it.
However, I seem to hesitate, or falter, in telling others about my faith. With a chosen few, I am open. But with many others, my fear of offending, my fear of rejection, these things hold me back. I am silent when I could say so much about Christ and what His love has done in my life.
Lord Jesus, help me to continue on the race of faith so that I may cross the finish line with exhiliration and joy in Your presence. Give me the courage to try to be an effective witness for You, telling others of the love, healing and peace you have brought to my life. Let me keep my eyes always on You. Make me bold, energetic and full of life as I share Your message. Help me to overcome whatever obstacles or fears are in my way, knowing that the prize You have promised is worth it all. Amen

Saturday, June 11, 2011

A Little Low on Gas: Refilling & Recharging Emotionally

"Take the time and trouble to keep yourself spiritually fit." 1Timothy 4:8 (Phillips)

"So many people were coming and going. Jesus said to them,"Come with me by yourselves to a quiet place and get some rest." Mark 6:31 NIV


I have a six year old tiny little car. When it gets low on gas, it voices it's displeasure, chugging up hills, lacking the power to drive at the speed of life. Sometimes I forget to check the gas tank gauge to see how it's doing, but it will remind me in these not-so-subtle ways. If it could speak it would be shouting "Go get your gas tank filled already!"

Sometimes I wish I came with a gas gauge. I find it difficult to judge when I am running on empty. I have started to notice that lack of energy and enthusiasm, difficulty sleeping, and dreaming all night might be signs of my own gas tank running on empty. Good to know before my life stalls in the middle of the fast lane!

I finally took a day off this week to pray and see what I needed to do to recharge emotionally. As I sat down to pray, I picked up an old half-filled prayer journal and out dropped a series of devotionals on"Recharging Emotionally". Coincidence? I think not. Thank you, Holy Spirit, for listening to my unspoken prayers.

How can I keep myself spiritually fit? 1) daily quiet and prayer time
2) belonging to a small group where the focus is faith
3) worship and praise
4) solitude
5) recreation
6) laughter
7) rest
8) balanced diet
9) regular exercise

I know these things, yet I need reminders and also time to consider, how well am I doing? Where could I improve? If I am going to fulfill my mission of being a blessing to others, I need to be recharged and refilled. The Holy Spirit will come and fill me with Christ's love and presence, but I have to create a space where He can work in me.

Lord Jesus, thank you for hearing my pleas and prayers to you. I want to be filled with your presence, so that I can go out and be a blessing to others. Bring me to a quiet place regularly, so that I can rest with You and be renewed with energy and enthusiasm, to accomplish the plans you have for me. Help me to find ways to keep spiritually fit and emotionally recharged, ready to do your work! Amen

More Healing Word of God: Matthew 11:19; Proverbs 17:22; 2 Corinthians 4:16; 1 Corinthians 6:20

Monday, June 6, 2011

Listening for God's Voice

"God's voice thunders in marvelous ways; he does great things beyond our understanding."
Job 37:5 NIV

"So, as the Holy Spirit says,"Today, if you hear God's voice, do not harden your hearts..." Hebrews 3:7-8

"Drop everything and listen, listen as He speaks: don't turn a deaf ear..."
Psalm 95:7 The Message

Listening for God's voice does not seem to be an easy thing to do. There are so many noises and distractions in my world, that quiet seems to be an unattainable luxury. I hear conversation, the television, music, shouts of "Mo-o-o-m", the background noise of everyday life. How can I hear God through all of that?

Luckily God is creative at catching my attention: His voice thunders in marvelous ways. He may bring a piece of Scripture to mind, or point it out in a reading I am doing: today it was the phrase "if today you hear God's voice, harden not your hearts". I ask myself: how is my heart hardened? with busyness, tiredness, a focus on self, attention paid to the distractions rather than the priorities...just to name a few!

Sometimes the Holy Spirit speaks to me...when I hear that still small voice, or notice a pattern or lesson that keeps coming up in my life. I think the Holy Spirit has been using the new-to-me challenge of learning to run, as a way to teach me. Lately, the message has been : SLOW DOWN and STAY CONSISTENT. Only when I slowed my pace (I am starting to question whether I am related to the turtle!) was I able to run as far and as long as I wanted to. And if I skip a day or two or a few of exercising, it is easy to get off track and lose a lot of the progress I've made. How do you think this might apply to my life in faith? I can see quite a few similarities....

God's voice is also heard through my Christian friends. They encourage me, uplift me, give me food for thought, and help me to "slow down and stay consistent" in my life of faith. A lunch date, a comment on Facebook, a telephone chat, who knows what means God may be using to catch your attention and help you to hear His voice....

Lord, help me to drop everything, and listen as You speak. Help me to notice the big and small ways You are trying to get my attention and to teach me. Soften my heart, open my mind and unplug my ears so that your message will stay and take root in my heart. I know and believe that You are doing great things beyond my understanding. I give thanks to You and praise Your holy name. Amen

More Healing Word of God: Isaiah 28:23; John 10:27

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Weakness Turned Into Strength

"Then (God) told me,
My grace is enough; it's all you need.
My strength comes into its own in your weakness.
Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become."
2 Corinthians 12:9-12 The Message

"I'll refresh tired bodies;I'll restore tired souls." Jeremiah 31:25 The Message

I am tired and feeling it these days: physically but especially mentally. I get frustrated with myself when this happens, especially when there is "no good reason" (or so my warped thinking tries to have me believe). "It's just life, deal with it!", I hear myself saying inside my head.

Yes, it's just life, but it has been tiring. The death of a dear neighbor, the busyness of the end of school year, the never-ending daily to-do's, the flurry of too many clients' stories, and who knows what else are floating around in my tired brain.

Luckily for me, God will refresh tired bodies and restore tired souls. I am counting on Him to do it, for I certainly can not do it on my own, and I have no desire to crash and burn. I am still on a sharp learning curve when it comes to the message in 2Corinthians 12:9-12.

Weakness is so often seen as a negative, and I certainly can get down on myself when I think I am weak (like this week!) But Jesus reminds me that weakness is a strength, when I rely on Him to get me through and fill me up with His strength: for then I can accomplish what alone would be impossible.

Jesus, help me to remember that whether I am tired, feeling my limitations, have been cut down to size or have run into unexpected obstacles, that You and your grace are all I need. You will turn my weakness into your supernatural strength, if only I can humble myself long enough to admit I need your help. Jesus, please take over my life: restore me, refresh me, turn my weakness into Your strength. Amen

More Healing Word of God: Mark 6:31; Psalm 119:114

Monday, May 23, 2011

Sift Before You Take Things To Heart

"For it is God's will that by doing good, you should silence the ignorant talk of foolish men." 1Peter 2:15 NIV

"A person's wisdom yields patience; it is to one's glory to overlook an offense." Proverbs 19:11 NIV

"Real wisdom, God's wisdom, begins with a holy life and is characterized by getting along with others. It is gentle and reasonable, overflowing with mercy and blessings, not hot one day and cold the next, not two-faced." James 3:17 The Message


Have you ever been to Frenchy's or a similar type of used clothing store? As a girl who loved to play dress up from the time I could barely dress myself, Frenchy's was a wonderful discovery. I could sift through bins and bins of clothing, looking for treasures that fit me and my personality, at dollar store prices. It is a challenge, as there are lots of things that don`t fit or aren`t my style or have some flaws. But for those few pieces that are diamonds in the rough, it`s so worth it!

Lately I have been working on sifting and sorting through my thoughts, as well as the comments that come my way from others. There are certainly lots of things running through my mind that are far from wise and loving. And I struggle with how to deal with the negativity and hurtfulness that I run into listening to others. It has occurred to me that often, it`s like I`m taking home the entire bin from Frenchy`s...good, bad, fit or misfit, ugly and spectacular. Why I am taking all those thoughts home to my heart...when there may only be one or two that truly fit me ?

Rather than taking it all to heart, I want to sift and sort until I know what fits and was made for me. Are the comments and thoughts gentle and reasonable, do they encourage getting along with others, are they merciful and a blessing to those who hear them ? Are they consistent with God`s Word and considerate of others ? If so, they fit me well, and I can take them home and show them off proudly. If not, God says they don`t belong in my heart and I can leave them behind.

Overlooking an offense is not easy, however with God`s help it can be done. In fact, in 1Peter 2:15 He challenges us to silence foolishness and ignorance by doing good ourselves. Maybe rather than taking home a thought that hurts or doesn`t fit, I can give that person a comment that is a blessing....sure sounds like an interesting way to end an argument! Jesus was a master at doing this very thing...I hope I can imitate Him some day.

Lord Jesus, help me to sift and sort through both my thoughts and the comments and actions of others. Rather than hanging onto everything I think or hear, help me to discard what is not from You. Teach me to hang onto only what fits into a holy life, and take that home to my heart. As I sort through others` comments, it would be easy to get offended. Help me to have Your patience, to overlook what might offend, and to offer something of a blessing in return. Amen

More Healing Word of God: 1Peter 2:23

Thursday, May 19, 2011

WWJS: What Would Jesus SAY ?

"Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen." Ephesians 4:29 NIV

"Watch the way you talk. Let nothing foul or dirty come out of your mouth. Say only what helps, each word a gift." Ephesians 4:29 The Message

"...for the mouth speaks what the heart is full of." Matthew 12:34 NIV


I have been learning about, and practicing mindfulness meditation for the last few weeks at work. I have really enjoyed carving time out of my day to be still and silent, but it is not without it's challenges.

It is certainly a wake up call as to how many thoughts and feelings I have on a daily basis, many of them not useful or downright anxiety-provoking and negative. It is challenging to not be judgemental of these thoughts, and to accept them and treat them with kindness, then re-focus on my breath.

Mindfulness meditation is rooted in Buddhism, and our teacher, who is a Sister of Saint Martha, challenged us to practice our mindfulness this week with the concept of "right speech". She made reference to Ephesians 4:29 noting that speaking kindly and with a positive purpose is not easy, but a wonderful goal to aim for (and to pray for help with!).

Although I have made improvements in this area, I know there is much further to go. This week I challenged myself to pay attention to how I speak about a co-worker. Although I am not downright nasty, I have often found myself speaking less than positively about her. I have to ask myself: What Would Jesus Say?

My prayer this week is that I will catch myself sooner, say less, think about what I say before I say it, and pray for her rather than putting her down. I have not been entirely successful! but I can say that I am more mindful and am making "baby steps" progress.

Lord Jesus, I pray that each word out of my mouth will be a blessing and a gift to those who may receive it. Cleanse my heart, so that what flows out of my heart into my mouth will be positive, good, and helpful. Help me to pause before I say something; be my "editor" so that what my words will be Your words. Amen

Life Steps: Pick one baby step area where you could improve your "right speech". Is there one person you could be kinder to, or one area of your life you pay less attention to your speech (home, work, play), or even one aspect of your speech (tone, swearing, volume) that could use improvement?

More Healing Word of God: Psalm 141:3; Proverbs 21:23; Ecclesiastes 10:12

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Shine Like Silver

"For you, God, tested us, you refined us like silver." Psalm 66:10 NIV

"And so, we are transfigured much like the Messiah, our lives gradually becoming brighter and more beautiful as God enters our lives and we become more like Him."
2Corinthians 3:18 The Message


Bling. Jewelry. A bit of shine adds a lot to an outfit. It catches my attention and says "look at me". I feel more confident when I'm wearing something shiny that complements what I'm wearing. I'm not a flamboyant dresser but I often get compliments when I wear an eye-catching piece of jewelry.

I never gave much thought to how my bling was made. Some of my favorite pieces are silver, and I read a little story recently that made me pause and think. A silversmith makes silver beautiful by holding it in the fire and letting it heat up. In order to refine it (make it pure and beautiful) he has to hold it in the hottest part of the fire to burn away all the impurities. And the silversmith must keep his eye on the silver at all times, because if it is left in the fire just a moment too long, it will be destroyed. But how does the silversmith know when the silver is fully refined? When he sees his image in it!

Can you see God as the silversmith of your life? At times, we wonder why He is "holding us in the fire"...it's not fun to go through life's difficulties and challenges and we would often give anything to get out of the fire. But God knows what He's doing: he is trying to make us pure and beautiful, so we can shine like silver and show His reflection to the world. Just like a beautiful piece of bling, he wants others to notice our shiny presence and wonder how we got so beautiful - on the inside and out. When we allow Him into our lives, He will gradually make us more like Him: brighter, more beautiful, pure and holy. When you are feeling the heat of the fire, don't forget that He has His eye on you every moment: he knows how much is enough....just enough to make you shine like silver.

Lord Jesus, thank you for gradually making me shine like silver. Though the refining process is not always enjoyable, help me to remember you are keeping a careful eye on me while I walk through the fire, and you will not allow me to get burned. Help me to learn the lessons you have in mind, quickly and well, so that I may life a brighter and more beautiful life. May Your presence shine like silver through me, so that I may draw others closer to You. Amen.

More Healing Word of God: Malachi 3:3; Proverbs 17:3; Isaiah 48:10; Zechariah 13:9

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Running is 90% Mental

"You were running a good race. Who cut in on you to keep you from obeying the truth? That kind of persuasion does not come from the One who called you." Galatians 5:7-8 NIV

"...I am afraid that your minds will be led away from your true and pure following of Christ..." 2Corinthians 11:3

"We capture every thought and make it give up and obey Christ." 2Corinthians 10:5b


I have been struggling daily with my commitment to learn to run 5 km. I refuse to give up and have committed to perseverance (6 days a week of either running, walking or biking at least 30 minutes), if nothing else. There are some days I feel pretty hopeless that I will accomplish it; other days I have some small hope that I may be able to do it. I have been trying not to focus on my body shape and size, but rather looking at running as a challenge and thinking of exercise as a way to improve my overall health. Keeping my thoughts in line and controlling my mind have turned out to be even more of a challenge than the physical part of running (and that is not easy either!)

I recently conquered my fears around the heavy breathing and gasping and spitting that comes with running. It reminded me of having a panic attack and my mind instantly would tell my body, "Shut down!" After talking with a friend who is an experienced runner, she helped me realize running is an inelegant sport (much like life I think) that can be messy and on the edge. I was elated at having overcome this fear and thought I would have smooth sailing for at least a while. Then I overheard a conversation between two friends that sent me spinning back into negativity. Discussion about weight and some slight condescension from a new running pal made my mind dizzy with negative thoughts: I am far heavier than they are, I have shorter legs and a rounder body than they do, I can never keep up with them, I am slowing them down....right down the drain is where my thoughts were headed.

I had a hard job rescuing my thoughts from the pit, but I prayed that Christ would capture my thoughts, much as a dreamcatcher is supposed to sift out the bad dreams from the good, and make all of my thoughts obey Him. And I focused on the important fact that discouragement, envy, negativity,and hopelessness do not come from God (Galatians 5:7-8) His Word was in fact very direct: You were running a good race! Who cut in on you to keep you from obeying the truth? That kind of persuasion does not come from the One who called you.


Lord Jesus, capture my every thought and make it obey you. Rescue my thoughts from the pit, where they have a tendency to gather and hang out, and help them rise again to where you call me. Protect my mind so that I will not be led away from You, and let your Spirit encourage me to "keep running a good race".


More Healing Word of God: Proverbs 4:23; 1John 4:1; Hebrews 12:1b-2a

Sunday, May 8, 2011

Mom is Wow Upside Down

"She does her work with energy, and her arms are strong. She knows what she makes is good...She is strong and respected by the people; She looks forward to the future with joy...She speaks wise words and teaches others to be kind...She watches over her family and never wastes her time." Proverbs 31:17-18,25,26-28 CEV

"By looking at (older women), the younger women will know how to love their husbands and children, be virtuous and pure, keep a good house, be good wives." Titus 2:4-5 The Message


Moms are wow. Actually, all women are WOW! For all women are mothers in so many different ways...caring for others, feeding them, lending a hand, comforting the sick, encouraging the lonely. Women work energetically at so many little and often thankless tasks that are never-ending: cooking, cleaning, laundry, planning special occasions, helping out a friend, and the list goes on and on. We certainly need strong arms, strong hearts and strong minds to do all of these tasks with a smile. On many days, it would be much easier to stay mad, cranky or bitter about the never-ending to-do list, and the often forgotten appreciation from others.

The woman so highly spoken of in Proverbs 31:10-31 is certainly a role model for me. Those are high standards to live up to...but with God everything is possible. I pray that I will know what I make and do is good in God's eyes; I pray that I will always look forward to the future with joy; I pray that my words will always be wise and teach kindness; I pray that I will not waste my time on things that will not bear fruit. I pray that God will watch over and protect my family as I try to do the same. This is my prayer for all of you blessed women too!

On this Mother's Day, I want to give thanks to God for the many "mothers" in my life, who have served as role models and Proverbs 31 women for me. They have each taught me different lessons and encouraged me on my journey. For my mother,Paulette, who gives more than she has, cared for me when I could not care for myself, and passed on the first seed of faith; for my mother-in-law Anne, a role model of faith and good cooking, whose priceless gift was raising a good son; for Dorothy, Maureen and Lynn, precious mentors in faith and prayer group friends, for Linda and Shirley, adopted mothers who cared for my children and household as their own; for Vicky, Cheryl, Janice, Monica, Kristen and the many other women friends who have brought laughter, trust, and fun to my life; for co-workers Donna, Danielle, Karen, Isabel, Mary, Gen, Brenda, Lee, and Maureen who have been a lifeline and a support group at work, and for all the women clients who have shared their stories and lives with me, and taught me much about life in the process. I give thanks to the Lord for all of you and look forward to the journey with you as my companions.

More Healing Word of God: Isaiah 66:7-13; 1Peter 3:4

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Beautiful the Mess We Are

"I'm a mess. I'm nothing and have nothing: make something of me! You can do it; you've got what it takes God." Psalm 40:17 The Message

"I'm in deep trouble Lord! Rush to my aid, for only you can help and save me." Psalm 70:5 LB

"...He rescues me because He delights in me." Psalm 18:19


My job gives me a unique viewpoint on being human. As I listen attentively in my office, it is my privilege to realize that problems are normal, and that everyone - yes, everyone - has challenges to face and difficulties to overcome. The grass may look greener in someone else's yard, but when you get over the fence, you realize it's the same type of grass in a different location :)

So, life is messy! But it takes a a lot of honesty and some humility to admit that your life is messy. Most of us would prefer to pretend that all is well, and that our lives are just perfect. We know they're not deep down, but we put on our brave, put together mask and show that to the world. No wonder we think everyone has it all together but us...

God sees through our masks. He knows what lies underneath them. But even more wonderful is that He loves us despite the mess we are..."He rescues me because He delights in me." And to top that, He can fix up our messes and make them into something precious and beautiful. If only we will be honest with Him and ourselves, and humble ourselves to admit that our lives are a mess. No matter what the mess is, He can use it to draw us closer to Him, to change us for the better, and to create beauty out of nothing.

God has rescued me from so many messes. My heart is overflowing with thankfulness for a resurrected-from-the-dead marriage, healing from negative thinking, replacing busyness with fruitfulness, and so much more. But first I had to turn to God, and believe me, times were pretty desperate: as Rick Warren says, you'll never know that God is all you need until God is all you've got.

Amy Grant's Better Than A Hallelujah is the soundtrack in my mind...hope you enjoy it.




Lord Jesus, with a humble heart, I offer you my mess. It's not much to look at, but help me to understand that You delight in me just as I am. Help transform my mess into something beautiful that will bring You glory. Amen

More Healing Word of God: 1Peter 4:12

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

In the Tomb, New Life is About to Surprise You

"Then he took (Jesus' body) down, wrapped it in linen cloth, and placed it in a tomb cut in the rock..." Luke 23:53

"(The women) found the stone rolled away from the tomb, but when they entered, they did not find the body of the Lord Jesus." Luke 24:2-3

Easter is such a beautiful season. Signs of spring have sprung, the peepers and robins sing to us, and the sights of green grass and children playing delight us. Easter eggs remind us of the new life they contain if properly cared for...and Easter chocolate is yummy even if it doesn't have much significance!

Have you spent any time in the tomb lately? It is not just our Lord Jesus who is buried there. Most of us have spent time in the tomb...often longer than 3 days. A miserable marriage, an old bitterness, hurtful memories, anger that burns us up inside, the loss of a loved one we just can't seem to get through, an illness that plagues us....there are so mnay types of tombs in our lives. We can also be wrapped up in things preventing us from truly living "life to the fullest"...what are the burial linens you might be wrapped in? Negative old beliefs and attitudes? Spending time on things which are not truly your priorities or your passions? Or perhaps it is that gigantic stone holding you back: a concern that you don't have enough money or education to fulfill your heart's desire, a belief that you get what you deserve and so you don't deserve any better....

Remember during your time in the tomb, that Jesus is there with you. He is holding you and encouraging you, and he knows that this time in the tomb has a purpose...it may be to peel off layers of "burial cloths", it may be to prepare you for the glorious new life He has in mind, it may be to show you that He can roll away the stone and resurrect things that are seemingly dead. Ask Him to show you what there is to learn during your time in the tomb...and remember you are not alone. Just like the perennials I have planted in my garden, your life may seem "dead", all dried up and withered, but if you choose to trust and wait on Him, He can and will "resurrect" you from the tomb you are in. And what a glorious bloom you will be !

Lord Jesus, help me to learn from this time in the tomb. Help me to peel away the old thoughts, beliefs and attitudes that are holding me back from new life. Help me to feel your presence in this cold dark place, and to belief that there will soon be light. Help me to rely on You to roll away the stone from the tomb...for I can not do it alone. I trust and believe that you have a new life for me, and I pray that day will soon arrive. Thank you Jesus, for defeating all kinds of death, and bringing us with you as you rise to new life. Amen

More Healing Word of God: John 11:1-43 (Death & Resurrection of Lazarus); John 19 & 20

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Sky-Sized or Ant-Sized?

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts." Isaiah 55:8-9 NIV

"I don't think the way you think. The way you work isn't the way I work. For as the sky soars high above earth, so the way I work surpasses the way you work, and the way I think is beyond the way you think." Isaiah 55:8-9 The Message

It is difficult to understand why God allows certain things to happen. Recently there was a death in my home community that shook people to the core. A caring family man with a sense of humor, and a kind streak a mile wide, died in an accident. Friends have been saying, "I'm so angry at God!"...and what can I possibly reply? I don't get it either. Along with the earthquakes and tsunamis in Japan, the devastation in Haiti, children dying of cancer, and so many other "unexplainables", it is these times when I struggle with what to say to say.

I do believe that God can and will use these events to produce goodness in our human lives (see Romans 8:28). And because he has given us free will, I know that our decisions are often not those He would have us make...therefore many of the "unexplainable" events are not of His own design. But how can I begin to understand why? Why do bad things happen to good people? There is no simple answer.

Today's verse gives us a hint of the answer though. God's thoughts are so much higher than ours, his ways are so far beyond what we do, that we can not understand. He has a "sky-sized view"...while our view is more like that of the ant crawling on the ground. What seems huge to us, is miniscule to Him. A rock in an ant's path seems insurmountable to the ant; yet the rock can be held in the palm of our hand.

We have to choose to believe God's promise, that He is holding us in the palm of His hand, when we are facing what may seem like insurmountable odds.

This verse also gives me comfort when it appears my prayers are not being answered. When a loved one continues to make bad choices, when I continue to struggle with one of life's challenges, maybe I am overlooking "God's view". Too often, I expect that my prayers will be answered in my own, limited human ways...when God has more creative, grand, and even surprising ways in mind.

Prayer: God, comfort all of those who struggle with unexplainable events that shake their faith. Help them to see Your presence in even the most difficult of experiences, and remind them that You are holding them in the palm of Your hand. Jesus, remind us that you have a "sky-sized view" of life here in earth, and that this is why we struggle to understand from our "ant's perspective". Help us to trust that You have our best interests at heart, and that You will bring good from all of our experiences. Let me be more aware of your creative and sometimes surprising, answers to my prayers. Amen

Life Steps: What could I do this week that would bring some good, out of a bad situation? In my journal, let me begin to write down my prayers, and when I look for His sometimes surprising answers, write those in my journal as well. On the days where I doubt Him, I can review my journal and remember all His answered prayers.

More Healing Words of God: Romans 8:28; Isaiah 49:16

Friday, April 15, 2011

Losing Your Self

"What good is it for you to gain the whole world, yet forfeit your soul?" Mark 8:36 NIV

"What good would it do to get everything you want and lose you, the real you?" Mark 8:36 The Message


Do you ever feel like you spend much of your time chasing something you can never quite seem to reach? I do. Sometimes it's to get all my work done...sometimes it's to be a really good mother...other times it would be nice to have a great wardrobe like my co-worker, or to be as slim and physically fit as a friend of mine. Or consider the never ending money game...why is it that the more you make, the more seems to get spent?

I can put a lot of effort into getting "more" of whatever it is I want. Relationships, money, material things...but part of being human seems to be that no matter how much "more" I have, I will never be satisfied. I might be a little happier in the moment, but it won't be a lasting happiness. And the tricky part is, I often have to "sell my soul" to get those things I want. It may be working long hours, investing all my energy into work, or hiding who I really am in a relationship, in the hopes of making it work. Whatever I give away, it often has a hidden, but very high price.

The answer to having everything you want (really for most of us this is peace, joy and love) and not losing yourself in the process: a relationship with Jesus. There is a song that goes: lose youself in Me, and you will find yourself, lose yourself in Me, and you will find new life...

Jesus, help me to let go of my earthly wants and needs; I do not want to have to lose my soul to obtain them. Holy Spirit, help me to understand that I will find myself, and new life, in relationship with You. Amen.

Life Steps: What are you chasing that never seems to satisfy?

More Healing Words of God: 1John 2:15

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

We Need Each Other

"Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another..." Hebrews 10:25 NIV

"Let's see how inventive we can be in encouraging love and helping out, not avoiding worshiping together as some do, but spurring each other on..."
Hebrews 10:25 The Message



Life goes so much more smoothly with the oil of friendship. Without it, life can be a squeaky wheel hitting all the ruts...

There is a way of thinking that says, "I can do it myself. I don't need anyone else. They won't do it right anyway. Friendship takes too much time and effort. I can't trust anyone but myself". I used to think that way. Hurt a few times, fiercely independent, maybe with a little too much personal pride...it was easier to rely on no one but myself. Anyway, I was too busy to make time for telephone chats, spontaneous visits, planned social events....I was a working mom after all (at least, that was my excuse!)

That way of thinking has an impact. When tough times hit, there is no one to support you. When you hit a roadblock, there is no one to encourage you. When fun or exciting or joyous things happen, there is no one to share in it with you. And you miss out on the pleasures of providing those wonderful gifts for others, too.

Sometimes, it does take a little inventiveness and creativity to meet up, encourage one another and help each other. Yesterday, I wanted to run with a friend who had no sitter and her husband was away. We were both working all day, and only had about an hour in which it might be even possible. So instead of admitting defeat, I looked for a way to accomplish it...my husband agreed to watch the kids (the kids were thrilled with a playdate!), I prepared supper that morning so we could arrive and run back out the door, and presto, I helped, encouraged and had a wonderful time running with my friend. I felt good about it all....instead of feeling rushed and frustrated and lonely, as I might have felt. And the smile on my friend's face was worth the effort!

Jesus, help me to look for new friendships, and to treasure my old friendships. Help me to invest some time and energy into my friends, knowing that we will encourage, love, support and help each other through the journey of life. Change my old way of thinking into a new understanding that you call us to live in relationship with each other. Send your Spirit so that I will not be afraid to take a step in this direction. Amen

Life Step: Be creative, and find a new way of being encouraging, helpful, supportive or loving, to an old friend this week. Look for an opportunity that God may be giving you to make a new friend.

More of His Healing Word: Ecclesiastes 4:9-10; John 15:15b

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Letting Go of the Guilt Magnet

"Then I acknowledged my sin to you, and
did not cover up my iniquity.
I said,"I will confess my transgressions to the Lord."
And you forgave the guilt of my sin." Psalm 32:5 NIV

"Then I let it all out;
I said,"I'll make a clean breast of
all my failures to God."
Suddenly, the pressure was gone -
my guilt dissolved, my sin disappeared." Psalm 32:5 The Message


Recently my daughter made her First Reconciliation...in my day it was called First Confession. She has been learning about it all year and still it was a difficult concept to grasp. It's no wonder, I guess, for us grown ups can't seem to get it either. Like her, I have often struggled with the concept of sin, and needing forgiveness. I remember in my early twenties saying to a priest, "I really have nothing to confess. I've done nothing wrong." He must have left shaking his head, not brave enough to challenge me lovingly as Jesus did with the rich man in Mark Chapter 10. Yes, maybe I did "keep the commandments", but there were surely many areas for improvement.

Things started to change for me when I was taught that the meaning of the word "sin", was really "missing the mark". It was easier for me to see how often and in so many little ways, I missed the mark. I let myself get caught up in negative thinking and feelings. I failed to be thankful for the blessings in my life. I didn't put God first in my life. (The list goes on and on but it's between me and God!)I began to regularly "let it all out": to name my past mistakes, and present failures to God. At times in the Sacrament of Reconciliation, at times in private prayer. The forgiveness I received was like a pressure that was suddenly gone, a burden no longer playing on my mind.

I also noticed that guilt is like a magnet. If we have unconfessed sin in our lives, no matter what it is, it seems to attract more guilt. That magnetic force often makes us feel guilty for things we are not responsible for, for others' actions and choices, or for things we have no control over. The result is that we are carrying around loads of guilt - ours and others - and it is impossible to live a joyful life. Once I begin to admit to God when I missed the mark, I could also let go of the guilt that didn't even belong to me in the first place.

A final thought - in my marriage I discovered there are 3 words more powerful even than "I love you". They are "I forgive you". I pray that you will discover the transforming power of forgiveness, in your own relationship with God, and in your relationships with others.

Jesus, you call us to live out a life like yours - a high standard that we can't achieve without Your transforming love, power and forgiveness. Send your Spirit to gently point out when we miss the mark, and teach us to be more like You. Help us to seek forgiveness from You, so that we might be free to live in joy and peace. Help us to let go of the guilt which does not belong to us. Thank you for dissolving our guilt, and making our sin disappear, through your ultimate sacrifice. Amen.

Life Step: Ask the Holy Spirit to gently show you an area of your life where you are "missing the mark." Let it all out before God and ask His forgiveness.


More of His Healing Word: Psalm 103:12; Mark 10:17-22

Monday, April 4, 2011

Running with the Word

"...Run with perseverance the race marked out for us." Hebrews 12:1

"For the Word of God is alive and active..." Hebrews 4:12



Have you ever prayed, all the while thinking, "this won't happen" or "I have no intention of doing anything about this"? I must admit I have (probably more often that I care to think about). One of the recent prayers I prayed was about improving my physical health, and becoming more physically active. One of those long un-crossed items on my To-Do list that I love to avoid. But New Year's came around, and I prayed that God would help me find a way to accomplish this goal. All the while not having any real intention of taking action on my own.


Funny how God works. He is listening apparently, and isn't concerned that I really didn't have a concrete plan to become more physically active. Later that month, He sent a LOT of snow, and must have planted a seed in my husband's heart too...he decided it was time to do more winter activities as a family, like skating, snowshoeing and sledding. And we did - every weekend. Apparently I just needed some encouragement and people to enjoy the activities with.


When the snow tapered off, I found myself at an impromptu meeting over tea, where I was told I would start learning to run and training for a 5K race in June. Running has always totally intimidated me and I never in my wildest nightmares thought I would run. I just don't have a runner's body I have always said! Guess what: 2 friends, a training schedule and some research later, I am running. (Well, truthfully at this point it's more of the gentlest jog you've ever seen!) And the decision to run was confirmed in many ways: with the Scripture passage "Run with perseverance the race marked out for us" from Hebrews 12:1, haphazardly picking up a novel with the main character being a runner, and my (gasp!) actually taking a little bit of pleasure in running. (Only when the north wind is at my back!)


The Word of God IS active and alive. When we pray (even if we don't truly mean our prayers!) God is listening, and He will communicate with us if we pay attention.


Jesus, I give thanks that You are listening to my confused and weak prayers, and that You are answering them as we speak. Help me to look for Your guidance in Your Word; help me to pay attention to the other ways You may be speaking to me. Help me to keep running like the wind, both on the road and also in the race of life that you have set before me. Keep me persevering until I reach my final goal, Heaven. Amen

Life Steps: In your journal, keep a list of prayer requests, and prayer answers. When you read God's Word, look for a few words or a sentence that really jump out at you, and think about how God may be speaking to you through His Word.

Monday, March 28, 2011

Sand and Sea Stories

"How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them! Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand..." Psalm 139:17-18 NIV

"If only you had paid attention to my commands, your peace would have been like a river, your well-being like the waves of the sea." Isaiah 48:18 NIV


I was blessed with a week's vacation on a sunny beach, and am grateful for the rest and refreshment I experienced there. I will be thinking and praying about how I can keep a sense of that rest and refreshment in my life, which surely does not always have to be super-busy and chaotic, a lifestyle I know is not from God. While walking on the beach, I got to thinking about the sand....immeasurable, uncountable beautiful grains of sand, just on this one beach; when I think of all the sand grains in the world it is mind-boggling. God's thoughts are like this....which is why He has no trouble keeping all of us safely in His care. I am glad I don't have that ability and responsibility...and I confess that sometimes I get into my SuperMom/SuperTherapist mode and think that I do. I pray that He will keep me humble and help me to focus on what He has given me to do. I am also grateful for the wisdom in all of the "grains of sand" in God's Word...teaching me daily how to live my life in His way.

Most people I've met feel a sense of peace and refreshment when we spend time by the water. In Isaiah 48:18, God reminds us that if we pay attention to his commands, really listen to and take action on His Word, we will have peace like a river, and our well-being will be like the waves of the sea. Not only can we find rest and refreshment in the beauty of nature He created, but also by paying attention to Him. There is a song refrain running through my head....my soul finds rest in God alone....

Lord, thank you for the times of rest and refreshment you provide me with. Help me to keep Sabbath with you on a regular basis, so I can be renewed in your presence and Spirit. Let me not get too busy or distracted to spend time with You, or think I am too important to rest, for both the Father and the Son rested. Thank you for all the grains of wisdom in Your Word. Help me always to find rest in You alone...a rest like the constant and steady rhythm of the ocean waves. In Jesus' name, Amen


Life Steps: Find time and space to rest in God, in your own way. Spend a few moments in God's Word to find the grain of wisdom you need for today.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Where Seldom Is Heard An Encouraging Word

"When we get together, I want to encourage you in your faith, but I also want to be encouraged by yours." Romans 1:12 NLT

Yes, I noticed, I misquoted the song in my title. In "Home on the Range" seldom is heard a discouraging word. But I notice that at work and at home, at rest and at play, encouragement is hard to find. I am not very good at giving encouragement to my husband and kids; at work, I rarely get encouragement from others. When I do give or get encouragement, it can feel like a breath of fresh air....I suppose that's why the sky is not cloudy all day, back on the range. Discouragement, whether the silent kind or the spoken out loud kind, can certainly feel like a black cloud hanging over me.

When I make the choice to encourage, that cloud can lift. It feels wonderful to encourage someone...and it can also help lighten their load. The sky seems sky blue when I hear a word of encouragement from others: it may give me fresh perspective, it might give me a boost to try something new, or it may reassure me that I am doing the right thing. Part of the reason God has designed us to be in community is to encourage and be encouraged.

Lord, I give thanks for those around me who offer an encouraging word; it means so much. Help me to remember to encourage those around me, about matters big and small. Help me to share my faith story as encouragement, and be open to hear the faith stories of others. Thanks most of all for the letters of encouragement you have written to me in your Word.

Life Step: Write yourself a post-it note as a reminder to encourage anyone you meet throughout your day. Pay attention and give thanks if you receive encouragement.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Don't be Afraid...Believe...Heal

Jesus said to (us), "Don't be afraid; just believe, and she will be healed." Luke 8:50 NIV

Jesus...said,"Don't be upset. Just trust me, and everything will be all right." Luke 8:50 The Message

I don't think of myself as a person who is generally afraid of things, or easily upset. However, on closer examination, I am easily startled, I worry about things over which I have no control, and at times I can get down right anxious or panicky, even overwhelmed. I think God knew that would be one of our major downfalls, as he says "Don't be afraid" 365 times in the Bible. That's one message for every day of the year. But how can I not be afraid?

The next part of this Scripture says it all: just believe and trust in Jesus. No need to complicate things, although it's tempting for me to do that. I do believe, and I pray the centurion's prayer often: Jesus I believe; help me in my unbelief.

When I believe, and trust in Him, there is healing. Jesus says everything will be all right. So no matter what I am concerned about, or feel stuck in, or what area of my life is broken, he can heal it...he can make it all better. I simply have to believe and trust...that He can, that He will, and that He is in fact working on it now.

Jesus, I believe and I trust in You. First, I pray for all who need healing...remembering especially those who are struggling with life threatening illness and pain. I pray also for healing in my own life, heart and mind...I am not afraid, because I trust in You. Amen

Life Step: Pray to believe, and that He will help you in your unbelief. Ask Jesus to show you an area of your life that needs healing, and pray, believing that He will heal you. Pray for healing for those in your life that are struggling with life threatening illness and pain.

Friday, March 11, 2011

Tuned In or Tuned Out?

"If you want to know what God wants you to do, ask him, and he will gladly tell you...But when you ask him, be sure that you really expect him to tell you." James 1:5-6 LB

It's hard to listen. Listening is a big part of what I do everyday in my work as a therapist, and I still find it very challening. There are so many distractions, things I want to say, and don't forget tiredness and inattention added in the mix. And then I really should be listening at home, to the most important people in my world, but by then some days my brain's just had enough. I think it has an automatic shut-off switch. By my prayer time before bed, I should probably be praying Jesus words' "He who has ears to hear, let him hear" (Luke 8:8). If I find it difficult to listen to people actually speaking to me, how much harder it is to listen to God?

Then there's the tiny problem: do I really want to do what God wants me to do? What about all those things I have on my to do list? If I listen for His voice and follow His directions, will any of that to do list get done? Maybe the to do list is not all that important...after all, God has it all under control.

Jesus, please give me ears to hear...You first of all. Let me listen for you in the Word, and in the Christian friends and influences you have placed in my path. I believe that you will give me clear direction; and I pray that I will have the courage to listen to Your instruction and wisdom. Help me to be "tuned into You" at all times. And please give me ears to really and truly listen to my family, friends and those people you place in my path. Amen.

Life Step: Carve out ten minutes of quiet time in nature or in a comfy spot, all by yourself with God. Listen for what He is saying to you. Pray that you will have ears to hear.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

What are you Feeding your Mind?

"So get rid of all uncleanness and the rampant outgrowth of wickedness, and in a humble (gentle, modest) spirit receive and welcome the Word which, implanted and rooted (in your hearts) contains the power to save your souls." James 1:21 Amplified Bible

What are you feeding your mind? We have such a wide variety of media to tempt us and lure us into spending our time...Facebook, Twitter, Wii, XBox, movies, television, Blackberries, texting...the list goes on. For a long time, I never paid attention to what I was watching or doing with my leisure time. Then when things got tough, I noticed that nightmares were often linked to what I watched on tv....a racing mind was connected to Facebook gossip before bed...and romance novels were giving me a false idea of what love was. It was time to re-evaluate what I was feeding my mind without even noticing. I guess going to bed with Criminal Minds and waking up with CNN doesn't really promote a feeling of peace and joy!

I haven't eliminated all media from my life...God has placed us in this world and he wants us to live to the fullest in it...but I have learned to evaluate what I watch, say and do. Though Criminal Minds is a great show, it fills me with fear and violent images....so I said goodbye. I keep my Facebook comments positive and uplifting. I am exploring Christian fiction and non-fiction and really enjoying it, and being careful with my other reading choices. Other things, I have decided not to embrace, like Twitter and texting, simply because my time is precious to me. I'm not perfect by any means, but I am trying to pay attention to what I am feeding my mind, and how I am spending my time.

Perhaps the most important change for me has been filling my mind with God's Word. It heals, teaches, changes, restores and comforts me. Small bits and short lines have started to save my soul...and dramatically change my way of thinking, doing and being.

I give thanks to the Lord for His Word, and for opening my heart to it's power and peace. May it help me to rid my life of anything negative or harmful, and may it take root in my heart and transform my life. In Jesus' name, Amen

Life Step: Identify one thing in your life that has a negative influence or impact on you. Decide to eliminate it, and challenge yourself to replace it, little by little, with God's Word. You may want to try a new translation of the Bible, or a devotional book based on Scripture. Start small and let God's Word take root in your heart.

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

Believe and Be Healed

"Heal me, Lord, and I will be healed; save me and I will be saved, for you are the one I praise." Jeremiah 17:14 NIV

"God, pick up the pieces. Put me back together again. You are my praise!" Jeremiah 17:14 The Message

This verse means a lot to me. It was my comfort during very dark times, both in my marriage and on a personal note. There was so much in my life that needed healing - it was a comfort to hear in God's Word that if I believed He could heal me, He would. There was certainty in this word - no doubt. It was so reassuring to me while I was walking through a dark Valley. And I chose to believe. God did not disappoint - in fact, he healed far beyond what I thought was possible.

This verse also reminds me to praise - no matter where on my journey I am. I can be in the dark valley and still praise God: as Jon Kabat Zinn says, "There is more right with you than what's wrong with you." Praising will also lift my spirits, remind me of what is good about God and His promises, and also help me to look with gratitude at my life.

I love the image of God picking up the pieces of me, and putting me back together. There are days when I feel I have fallen apart, or I am at the end of my rope and just can't hang on any longer. This verse teaches me that it's okay to let go...and let God. He will pick up the broken shards of my life, and form them into a new and beautiful, whole and holy, creation.

Praise you, Jesus, for healing me and saving me. Praise you for the beauty that is in my life, and for the beauty you are creating out of the broken pieces. I believe and I trust that you continue to heal me and save me day by day. Amen

Life Steps: Praise and thank God for what is good in your life. Learn to praise God for his unchanging qualities and promises (for example he is a Mighty Healer, our Saviour, the Alpha and Omega). Pray and believe that He will heal you - offer Him your most broken pieces.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Giving: Yours & Mine

(Jesus said to the Father) "All I have is yours, and all you have is mine." John 17:10

A giving heart...why is it so hard to give sometimes? Our loving Father so lavishly gives us all of His gifts....the beauty of nature, the wonder of a loving family, food and shelter, a body that is a miraculous work of art, just to name a few. He created them all. Though I am called to give just as lavishly, I tend to want to hang on to things, to cling to them. I could use that money for the kids...I really don't have enough time to do that...I'm not really qualified to help...how many times have I thought variations on these thoughts? Or should I say excuses?

Jesus' prayer to his Father in John 17 is so beautiful; he prays for us, and would have us live out these words of his as we follow him. He relies daily on the Father for all he needs, and in return, the Father gives him more than he could ever dream of. Our Father longs to do the same for us. But instead of holding on to our blessings, we are to use them up...knowing that God will provide even more than we can imagine in return. When we offer our whole hearts, minds, bodies and lives to God, all of his abundant gifts are available to us...strength, courage, grace, love, peace, joy and so much more. Gifts without price, not available in any shopping mall or online store. We have only to give what we already have, and trust in Him.

Jesus, I pray that you will help me to give cheerfully and generously, of all the gifts I have received from you, particularly money, time and talent. Let me always trust in you, that you will provide for my every need, out of the abundance of your gifts.

Life Steps: What is Jesus asking you to give more of? Spend some time in prayer to discern this, and then be a generous giver. Also, pay attention to how God is providing for you: were you able to accomplish more in less time, and with peace? did you have a financial need that was met in a surprising way?

Saturday, March 5, 2011

No Fear

"(She) will have no fear of bad news; (her) heart is steadfast, trusting in the Lord. (Her) heart is secure, (she) will have no fear." Psalm 112:7-8 NIV

"Unfazed by rumor and gossip, heart ready, trusting in God, spirit firm, unperturbed, ever blessed." Psalm 112:7-8 The Message

The world is full of bad news. If it's been relatively quiet on our own home front, we can turn on the six o'clock news and see for ourselves the disasters and violence happening around the world. We are drawn to the most terrible events with a kind of fascination...perhaps because it makes our own lives seem a little better. Rumors and gossip are really a local version of the nightly news...it is tempting to get caught up in talking over so-and-so's bitter divorce, the co-worker's cancer diagnosis, a friend of a friend's affair, and did you hear about her husband's drinking problem? Although they are not our own troubles, one of two things often happens: we worry and fret about others and their fate, or we rejoice inwardly that our own lives are better and then put it out of our minds entirely.

Until the day the bad news is delivered to our door. A pain you've been ignoring turns out to be a tumor. The overtime your husband has been working for months turns out to have been spent with another woman. Your son or daughter is using drugs. We can't ignore it when it comes knocking at our own home. So our response is often uncontrollable worry, an overwhelming sense of panic, or the darkness of depression.

The woman who trusts in God, and knows that He will bring her through all events in her life, has no fear. She knows that fear is not from God, for he has said 365 times in the Bible, "Fear not". Her heart is steady, leaning on Him, and relying on His love and wisdom. What she can not control, she hands over to God, knowing He has a plan. What she can do, she does: provides comfort to others, goes about her daily activities to the best of her abilities, and prays often.

Lord Jesus, let me not be afraid of any bad news; let my heart trust in you, and have no fear. Amen.

Life Steps: If I watch the news, can I change how I think about terrible events? Instead of worrying or ignoring, God might be calling me to pray hard or take action to help in some small way. The next time I hear gossip, I could also pray or find some way to help.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Bitter or Better?

"...we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him..." Romans 8:28 NIV

"...we can be sure that every detail of our lives of love for God is worked into something good." Romans 8:28 The Message

Do you ever wonder why some things happen? How come brain damaged babies are born...why children die of cancer...why abuse continues to happen to the most vulnerable...why people are starving....why floods, earthquakes and wars continue to devastate our planet? I wish I had an answer for you, but I don't. I ask myself the same questions, and I have often said, when I get to Heaven that's the first question I'm asking.

What I have learned is that no matter how devastating the event or circumstance is, God can and will make good come from it, if we trust in Him and love Him. He may use an illness to teach us the value of health, the compassion of caregiving, or the lesson of humility. He can take experiences of abuse, heal them, and then use them to help others in similar situations. He can rescue broken and battered marriages, resurrect them, and turn them into beautiful and peaceful families. I can say this with certainty because He has worked all of this good in my life, out of challenging and difficult experiences I lived through. Every day, my heart is grateful for all this amazing good that has come out of events that could have made me bitter, angry, resentful or miserable. Life events can make you bitter, or they can make you better....the key to making me "better" has been my faith in God.

Lord Jesus, help me to look for the challenges in my life that You have turned into good. Keep my heart grateful for these learning experiences and how You have used them to shape me into a woman after God's own heart. Let me look for ways to share these experiences with others so that I can shine Your light. Amen

Life Steps: Think of at least one very difficult time in your life. Turn it upside down and inside out, to see what good God worked with it. Think about what you learned, how it made you a better person, how you were able to help others as a result. Give thanks to God for these small miracles!

Monday, February 28, 2011

The Temple is a bit of a Mess!

"Don't you know that you are God's temple and that God's Spirit lives in you?" 1 Corinthians 3:16 NCV

"You realize, don't you, that you are the temple of God, and God himself is present in you? No one will get away with vandalizing God's temple, you can be sure of that. God's temple is sacred - and you, remember, are the temple." 1Corinthians 3:16-17 The Message

There's nothing like posting pictures of yourself on Facebook to realize that those extra 20 pounds are still there. Sometimes I hope that if I ignore them long enough, they'll just go away....but no such luck. In my head my rationalizing thoughts immediately chime in: I don't want to be obsessed with my weight, I've been this size for a long time, It's just my natural shape, I don't have time to exercise....all of which are somewhat true. However, when I think of my body as God's temple, these excuses fall pretty short.

Yes, my temple has gotten a bit sloppy and messy. Thankfully God loves me anyway, but that can't be another excuse to avoid exercise. If I was in charge of cleaning our church I certainly would want it looking it's best and prettiest, with all the needed repairs getting done promptly. Why is it any different when it comes to my body? My body is supposed to be God's hands and feet in this world...I wonder what kind of a first impression I'm making on His behalf?

Jesus, I am so grateful for the gift of your Spirit which lives in me. Help me to care for my body, Your temple, so that I may continue to do Your work. Help me not to vandalize my body with lack of exercise and poor eating habits. Give me the strength to make my body healthier and more attractive, so that I can be a visible and shining example of Your Spirit in this world.

Life Steps: Think about what you could do to improve your body's health and condition. Maybe we need to start first, with the attitude shift that is required when we see our bodies as God's temple. But what is the next step? For me, it is committing to exercising more often and more consistently, finding time to do it, and making it a priority. And definitely asking for God's grace to do it!

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Tackling my To-Do List With Jesus

"Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light."
Matthew 11:29-30 New Living Translation

"Walk with me and work with me - watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won't lay anything heavy or ill-fitting upon you. Keep company with me and you'll learn to live freely and lightly." Matthew 11:29-30 The Message

This week coming up scares me. The weekend is over before I noticed it had arrived, and I am still trying to finish laundry and figure out supper. But next week, with my husband away for work, babysitter juggling, a surprise late night work assignment and all of the usual chores and hurry-up "to-do's" is seeming pretty overwhelming. I just want to climb under the covers and wait for spring.

Jesus promises us that nothing he assigns us "to do" in this life will be too heavy or too difficult. He has faith in us and the gifts He provides us with. He also knows He is not asking us to do anything alone - in fact, He wants to be with us every step of the way. He reminds us we can learn from Him, as He took time to spend with His Father in prayer daily, and worked tirelessly caring for thousands of people. He never ran out of energy or inspiration, patience or love, because He was connected to the Father. He offers us His yoke - a way of sharing the burden that we are carrying - if we will only turn to Him.

Jesus, I long to find rest for my soul. Only in You can I find the peace and joy that I crave instead of the chaos and busyness of the world. Help me to take on Your yoke, so that my burdens will seem light. Open my heart and my mind so that I might live with the unforced rhythm of grace you promise us: a life that is light and free, and designed especially for me. Amen

Life Steps: Is there a burden I am carrying that seems too heavy to bear, or is the daily grind wearing on me until I can barely stand it? I will picture Jesus walking beside me as I go about my day, and know that I am not carrying this alone.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Fitting In?

"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind." Romans 12:2 NIV

"Don't become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You'll be changed from the inside out." Romans 12:2 MSG

I have always wanted to fit in, and always felt that somehow I don't. I suspect that many of us want to be one of the "in crowd" or at least know we belong somewhere. I remember hoping maybe the right clothes or maybe a boyfriend would help me fit in as a teenager. At university having a couple of drinks and going to the bar helped me pretend I fit in for a few hours at least. When we moved to a new small town, at first the anonymity was fun...then it was lonely. My marriage was falling apart at the seams and I felt isolated and alone. I was beginning to get the message that I would never fit in, no matter what I did!

Loneliness and a sense of not fitting in, turned out to be a blessing in disguise, though it certainly didn't feel like it at the time. Who can you always go to when no one else is there? God, of course. I began to renew my friendship with Him, and He began renewing my mind, and then my life. It didn't matter that I didn't fit in...He had other plans and knew just where I would be a perfect fit.

Curiously, after I fixed my attention on God, as Romans 12:2 says, I had better relationships and more of them. Friends, old and new, came out of the wood work without any real effort to "fit in" on my part. Something had changed and it didn't seem to be the world. Could it be that I was changing from the inside out?

Today, I am happy to not fit in with today's culture. I am quite content to question the status quo: being so busy there is no time to think, so obsessed with money and things there is no time to enjoy life, so focused on myself that there is no consideration for others. Sometimes it is a challenge to explain why I choose to work part-time, why I make time to go to Mass and prayer group instead of carting my kids to competitive hockey, and why I'd rather go on a family vacation than own the latest designer brands. Hopefully the feeling of peace and happiness I have about these decisions speak for themselves. My prayer is that they are a reflection of God's renewing of my mind.

Prayer: Lord Jesus, please continue to change me from the inside out. Protect me from the way of the world, and renew my mind with Your Word. Help me to fix my attention on You each day, and remind me that You are where I belong. Amen

Life Steps: Identify one area of your life where you feel you fit in with today's culture. Pray about this to see if it is time to make a change, and let God renew your mind.

Friday, February 25, 2011

Renovating My Heart and Mind

"Be made new in the attitude of your minds." Ephesians 4:23

As a teenager, I had a penchant for moving my furniture around, painting my room, adding and removing beloved objects and displaying momentos. If you could see around the dirty laundry, piles of books and clutter, I loved designing my space. My mom probably put up with this because it forced me to (at least occasionally!) clean my room. As a busy working mom, I no longer have the time to remodel the rooms of my house as often as I used to...although some of my walls are screaming for new paint and others are bare waiting to be filled.

I have been busy, during the last few years, with a far more important renovation...on the inside. If you could only have seen the state of my heart and my mind when I began...piles and piles of anger, sadness, hopelessness and chaos ; the clutter of false beliefs about myself, others and life; dirt and grime-covered negative thoughts constantly swirling in my head.
I still shake my head at the mess I see, but I know that I have come a long way in cleaning out the clutter, and beautifying my life. This was not a task to tackle alone...my friend Jesus was more than willing to help; he brought me a renovation crew of Christian friends; and taught me through his Word what to throw away, and what to replace it with.

The renovation is ongoing...it will not be complete anytime soon. But with daily time spent pondering God's Word, praying for a new heart and mind, and trying to listen for the Holy Spirit's gentle nudges, the renovation seems to be progressing. Little by little, He's changing me. Some day, I hope to be able to say as Paul does, "We, however, have the mind of Christ." (1 Corinthians 2:16)

Life Steps: Can you identify some of your negative thoughts or beliefs? See if you can find a Scripture quote that will help you renovate your mind and heart. For example, I often think to myself, "I can't do this." My renovated thought is "I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength." (Phillipians 4:13)