"Keep your eyes on Jesus, who both began and finished this race we're in. Study how he did it. Because he never lost sight of where he was headed - that exhilirating finish in and with God - he could put up with anything along the way: cross, shame, whatever."
Hebrews 12:3 The Message
I have such grand plans...and great ideas. And I am so easily sidetracked that it's almost laughable. I'm sure God does get some amusement from the antics in my brain and my life some days..."I'll just find one more activity for my religion class...oh yes, I need to make something for lunches tomorrow...I wonder if I put that load of laundry in the dryer...could I have done something more for that client?...I have to pack for that trip...Valentine's is coming up soon, have to do something special...haven't posted on my blog in awhile...it's my Mom's 60th birthday today...you need the camera for school? wait I'll find it...gotta get my hair dried before heading out in the freezing cold" This is just a 15 second snapshot of my brain on life. No wonder I'm mentally exhausted by nightfall. I'm sure many of you can relate!
I am lacking focus and discipline these days. Feeling distracted, jumping from one
thing to the next without getting what I envisioned done, whether it be in my home life or work life or especially my prayer life. Taking some time to ponder this, I could blame a busy life and a desert dryspell in faith, or any number of culprits. But I keep coming up with the gentle nudging of the Spirit who says "You need to carve out some time with me...consistent time...time when you pursue a relationship with me, no matter where you're at in this rat race." It's not a pointing finger...I know God loves me no matter what. Yet the growth I crave, the fruit I would like to bear for Christ will not happen without some discipline, perseverance and consistency.
I think this is a time for me to weed out the million and one ideas I have...instead of adding spiritual disciplines or spiritual activities without thinking them through, I would love to be able to commit to one or two and persevere with them. The discipline of learning to run (which I also lost and am trying to find my way back towards) means making time for it,preparing mentally and physically for it, and focusing on it. I need to apply those principles in my relationship with Jesus as well!
Come Holy Spirit, and turn my eyes upon Jesus. Let me continue in this race of life as Jesus did - setting aside precious time to be with His heavenely Father - let me not lose sight of my goal to be with Him always. Amen
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